Healing
I went for a run this morning. My app says 9:42 min/mi; only 4 brief pauses. Even though I am still coughing up whatever bronchial nonsense that was plaguing me earlier this week, that is now my best time.
Plus, I beat the rain, and the train.
In running, I’m learning about myself. A lot. Despite illness, one thing was driving me on this run. Rage. The longer I could channel my red focus, the better my pace, the better my results. So much so, it is almost time for me to switch from running for endurance to running for speed.
My top speed had me on pace for a 7:15 min/mi. I have plenty to be mad at now, time to use it for fuel. When life gives you lemons, take that juice and throw it in their eyes.
Screw you, life. You’d better watch your back, I’m coming for you. You’ve backed this badger into the corner for the last time, it’s time to show the teeth and feel the claws.
Really Martin? Your company just got a bunch of funding. You finally solved a bunch of really hard technical problems and so everything should be easy from here on out at work.
Sure you have some issues in your intrapersonal relationships, but everything else is better than it has been in years! You love your current lifestyle, are eating healthy, and even your emuna is on an upswing. How about how you turned around a terrible chess game and got an amazing checkmate last night with the clock running down? Talk about a thrilling victory!
Get a grip man!
Grrr. Badger. Teeth. Claws…
You know that whenever you let women start getting in your head that it throws you off your game. It is true, you do need to focus on yourself, but rage isn't the answer.
If it's in Yah's plan, their heart will warm to you again; perhaps in a healthier way this time. If it's not, then it wasn't meant to be. If you focus on you, and the tasks that you have in front of you, then you will make an impact on the only thing you have control over.
He is the only one capable of restoration. You are amazing, talented, and witty. You can be loved for who you are, not just what you can provide.
Yeah, that’s what David Haller said. “I’m a good person. I deserve love.” You saw how that ended for him. We don’t even have a time traveler on our team, or any extraordinary mutant abilities to go with our madness…
Sigh… How I have hated discipline, and my heart has despised reproof! Oh Wisdom, I hope I can find you as I enter into this doorway, the years of my strength, as I had scoffed at you in my youth.
Give not thy strength unto women,
nor thy ways to that which destroyeth kings.
It is not for kings, O Lemuel,
it is not for kings to drink wine;
nor for princes strong drink:
Lest they drink, and forget the law,
and pervert the judgment of any of the afflicted.
Give strong drink unto him that is ready to perish,
and wine unto those that be of heavy hearts.
Let him drink, and forget his poverty,
and remember his misery no more.
Soundtrack ~ Suicidal Tendencies - Nobody Hears
Soundtrack ~ Social Distortion - Reach For The Sky